Sunday, June 25, 2006
oh SHUCKIES !
school's like gonna start soon and frankly , this damn sucks like crap can ! fine , i know i shouldn't be responding this way but arghhhhh . oh well , perhaps without the fact of having to study , all things else is alright . and definitely i know why i need to have schooling , for the sake of the next generation and for glorification . haha and thankfully there are something worthy to go school for , for a great cause mind you !
so school , here i so don't feel like coming but i still ought to come !
and okei denise , please change your freaking attitude regarding studies ! make it good !
hence now , i'm TRYING to do homework , but it seem to be no avail . someone nice please watch over me , cause it'd be horrible =D
i'm excited for the harvest and i forsee great miracles ! =D
psalm 23:4
6:25 AM
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
i was recalling back my past few days
and phew . . .
it was always a false alarm
a blessing in disguise
it was always when things seem so out of hand
and ta-daa !
God just intervene
when we , do things according to His ways
He just simply somehow back us up ...
easily !
like duh ~
He's the Almighty !
recently i have been evaluating on my life
wah , so much to change .
i'm willing as well =D
must grow to be have more self-awareness
observe more
exercise my gift discernment
cos i know it aint a occasional thing
not a once off thing
not also frequent
not often as well
but constant .
be good steward of what the Lord has entrusted
family
friends
ministry
time
and so much more . . .
haha but it's fulfilling when i did a great job in all these areas
the time has come
time to be faithful
time to be fruitful
and forever and ever amen .
i'm ever hungry
ever thirsty
feed my souls
let it not to be dry for ever one moment
haha so that was spiritual food
talking about physical food
i'm eating on full corn now ~
and wah seh , very difficult to eat
cup corn is indeed easier
and hor , sometimes i wish i'm not a self motivator
cos now i really don't feel like doing my school work [ and i'm ALWAYS like this , say AMEN ]
someone please come and nag at me ! ! [ threaten me also can ]
and i don't want to make today fruitless
thats the problem with people and task oriented person
wonder why God made me so balance
made me so self contradict
haha but i know i'm not crap !
=D
life's good .
11:42 PM
Lorddddd !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
there're hidden stuffs inside the word " Lord "
but when i know and God knows . .
it's enough !
=D
and all these shall be done swiftly !
Amen !
=D
then God answered : DONE ! =D
REFUGE .
10:46 AM
Saturday, June 17, 2006
woaaaaaaahhhh !
let the rain of Your presence :
let the rain of Your presence fall on me
everyday that i live
with every breath i breathe
let the rain of Your presence fall on me
everywhere that i go
Lord let Your presence fall
rain on me
love divine
joy unspeakable
overflowing in my soul
this heart of mine
is refreshed and at rest
in Your presence
in Your presence
i've got the joy :
there's annointing in the air
i can feel it everywhere
i've got power in my soul
so let the river flow
can you feel the rushing wind
its blowing deep within
my spirit is alive
my life has been revived
i've got the joy
i've got the peace of mind
i've got the faith
in the holy ghost
that fills me everyday
i've got the life
i've got the melody
i've got the word
the word of God
that sets me free
haha and yuppie ! this two praise and worship song [ not respectively ] are the description and expression of how i felt this few days ! J.O.Y ! yes ! JOY ! haha =D
and apparantly there can be JOY even if i have some red stuff on my nose . okei , i don't know what on earth is that ! but it's definitely not a pimple can ! but God-knows what it is . haha . and people , STOP [ its capital letter mind you , means i'm serious and i mean business ] teasing that God-knows-red-thingy on my nose , or else i might really isolate from everyone else and dare not go out . it's freaking scary lah that thingy ! i just woke up one day and found out that there's this red thing , its like ohmyGod can ! i'm not sounding bimbotic lah but u gotta have my heartbeat ! [ with exclaimation mark ! ] i'm praying hard that God will have mercy and favour on me , cast that You-know-what-red-thingy away from my nose ! in Jesus name ! AMEN ! and the red thingy is a heart shape , so disgusting right ? i don't love you at all lah ! i hate you alot alot ! GO AWAY NOW !
but through it all , despite the fact of the God-knows-red-thingy on my nose , my life is JOYFUL ! it's happening ! =D
11:20 PM
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
when i just started out in my ministry . . .
someone asked me this question . " what do you picture yourself becoming
FIVE YEARS down the road ? "
back then . . .
i do not dare to
DREAM BIG for God
so my replied was to join a ministry [ perhaps dance ] and also to become a
UNIT LEADER !
yea ! and i've accomplish the one in joining a ministry !
but ...
HELLO !
we do not have to take
FIVE YEARS in order to become a
UL !
so now . . .
if someone were to ask me again " what do you picture yourself becoming
FIVE YEARS down the road ? "
my reply would be ...
to become the
YOUNGEST DISTRICT LEADER !
and to establish
DANCE MINISTRY into greater heights !
like our
DREAMS , in our very own ministry , there would be ministries as well ! =D
today i went for Crash Course for New Testament Survey , it's
GOOD ! not only do they impart knowledge of the historicals background , but other than that , there are many principles and applications we can learn and practise =D its like two in one ! =D
afterwhich , we had
DANCE RETREAT ! =D lets go into the part whereby we share why we join dance and hey mind you ! all dancers are
BIBLICAL , don't cha dare mess with us , cos ya messing with God ! haha =D it's really
AMAZING to see how the dancers want to
MINISTER to the masses with our dance moves and
IMPACT others and how the dancers gathered and have fun . dance is really a
GREAT GREAT ministry ! =D oh we shared testimony too , look , qixin grew so much in dance , who still dare say joining a ministry can't make you grow ! and Lord , i pray so much for future
SHEEEEEP like qixin ! her
HUNGER for You , her
EXCITEDNESS , her
PASSION , her
FIRST LOVE , her
CHILDLIKENESS , her everything is really a
WONDERFUL and
INSPIRING testimony to us ! i'm so amazed at how God uses people with pure
WILLING heart ! =D yea ! dance is
AWESOME and i really
LOVE the ministry and them alot ! thank God for placing you in part of my life and you guys really taught me alot in
WILLINGNESS and
HUMILITY and more ! =D
and i know we're all
READY to be use by God in all areas ! =D
" i will go ! where You want me to go ! "
8:18 AM
Sunday, June 11, 2006
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i can't stand it anymore ! ! ! ! !
i'm gonna jump off the building !!!!!!
oh my daddy !!!!
hmm yes , i'm back from camp , back from fifteen hours of sleep , but i heard of people who slept for twenty hours . i can't beat that ! haha =D
well , camp is AWWWWWWWWWWWWW so AWWWWWWWWWWWWW , can't find a word to describe it ! erm perhaps the word is mind blowing !
yea the spirit lives within me , i can do all things because of He's enablement ! =D sixty ! it shall be done ! the indwelling and the outpouring of the HS is so evident and tangible throughout the past few days in camp and we ain't gonna let it stop , but it'll be ongoing ! yes and amen !
i love my sheeeep
i love my shpeherd
i love my caregroup
i love my unit
i love my district
i love my church
i love my ministry
arghhhhh i love every single one of you in church alot lah ! haha =D because if you guys ain't there , the camp wouldn't be a successful one . together we made this camp possible ! =D we experience God in one accord =D
the fellowship is really fun and the games that brought unity for east , the other districts that alliance together to attack us did made the whole east united ! thank God for you guys ! =D muakaka =D the praise and worship that's so refreshing that brought revival in our hearts ! who can resist the presence of God there and then ? who can deny that God is not real ? teachings are so inspiring , the very logos word from the WOG became a rhema word , thats the living word ! that's God given ! and everything , it's just God's plan ! =D
the least of us will become a mighty nation ! yes ! ! haha i'm so excited ! so what if i'm the smallest now ? i'll just whack and knowing that the spirit will enable me ! i don't care , cause this is a do or die issue ! use me cause i am freaking willing ! arghhhh , i can't sit still now , i am really very excited and convicted and convince that God will pour down His blessings and i'll collect it like nobody's business ! =D
satan , move aside , cause no one is gonna entertain you , all of us are so spirit filled that no one knows you exist ! our journey with God is a sustainable one , is a renewed one , is a spirit-filled one ! here i am , use me ! to break sixty , to disciple people to become CL and to grow myself to a UL =D and every single thing =D all will be done in due course to God's timing ! =D the Lord promised it to be swiftly ! =D
spirit-filled
9:25 AM
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
OH MY DADDY ! !
one more day to encounter !!!!
to be exact it's eleven more hours and thirty minutes ! !
can't wait for camp !
cos it gonna be great !!
gonna experience a greater height of praise and worship ! !
stepping into the next level of spiritual maturity !
fun and biblical fellowship with my sheeps ! ! !and many more ! !
lets really pray hard for this camp . lets not let Jesus pass us by just because we didn't prepare our heart well . i'm really praying hard for my brain memory ! to remember the dance steps , we wanna minister to the people !!! oh not forgetting , pray for christine's ankle , Lord please heal her ! and also , my camp objectives , i set it to meet it ! =D praying hard that my people can really be ministered by every of the activities , all the way from opening to games to dinner time to bathing , sleeping , concert , praise and worship and closing , and whatever i've missed out . last but not least , for myself ! =D haha ! =D
i'm all ready ! [ except i have yet packed bag . haha ]
come on and move me ! =D
8:19 AM
Sunday, June 04, 2006
WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CL one day camp so COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really learned alot !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the worship is really great , its been long since i last had a extended worship with God and God really flood me with His presence =D the prayer is also great , yeah finally prayed earnestly for myself =D first and foremost , my spiritual life must be always good in order to lead my people to the greater extent .! =D oh yeah , we had sharing and QNA today with shirley , initially din had a chance to ask her my questions but i managed to ask her when we're walking to have our dinner . wah , i really find that pastor shirley is really a great leader . she's one leader that inspires me alot ! pastor dinah and jolene tan also . thank God for her perseverance on me . also other leaders that i worked with before ! supposed its all leaders in east and the leaders from my ministry . they're really strong people of God =D
i'm praying for myself that once i know my spiritually life is gonna be invaded by satan , i will guard my heart and pray against it ! it can be done ! and in fact , this is what we always should ought to do !
yeah today learned that we ought to grab every opportunity , and most importantly is JUST WHACK !!!!! wah and also the sermon by our founder is so mind blowing ! hear this " ... if half of the world's population is christian , it means that we have two million churches and we have another 28 million churches to go and this is simple ... as long as we do it in God's way ! ... " wah all of us really feel like jumping down when we heard this , we can't even build a caregroup . but yes and amen ! we can do it in God's way and it shall be done ! we can do all things through christ to give us strenght !
LORD ! GROW ME !
i'm all ready for camp !
God ! use me as a vessel !
here i am , use me !
7:07 AM
Saturday, June 03, 2006
today is really a great and exciting day . i can't deny the fact that God's hand is upon all His children ! so long as our hearts have decided to commit to Him and desire to love Him and His people =D if we have this , nothing can hinder our relationship with God unless we hold back our commitment .
yea , so the whole long naggy story goes like this . i attended both first and second service today , and well it has been a long time since i last stepped into first service . this time round i accompanied jacq and her friend , tricia , to first service , she's already a believer of christ but have yet been committed to a local church . throughout their praise and worship i saw that she's really enjoying herself in the tangible presence of God , and no doubt , first service praise and worship was indeed better . haha . i like the part that it bomb me hard , the part when bruce and gwen spoke out cos it really struck me . so Lord , i'm willing and i'm ready for you to work a revival in me ! =D here i am , use me ! =D hee so during altar call , pastor jeff call for those who wanna be baptize in the holy spirit to step to th front . tricia obeyed and we started praying her her , soon and very soon , she started to broke out in tongues ! imagine a girl that is not connected and now she came and received the HS ! wah that's the power of God using people of faith and desire for Him ! =D God is REAL ! i teared , cos i couldn't hold it back , that's tears of joy even though this is the first time i see tricia . haha .
after that i attended second service , pastor jeff approach for both service was different , the second more fun and altar call was GOOD ! during altar call , pastor jeff called for those who have yet receievd the spirit to come to the front and pray together . unfortunately , it wasn't the same situation as the previous service but it was a complete change . so i'm faced with the negative and i realize that God is still not giving up ! however i teared again but this time round with different set of emotions which is tears of despair . but i know that there's more than to meet the eyes during camp ! =D cos i know God won't give us up !
so i had a small chat with ah be during dinner time , you'll be in my prayers =D God never give us problems and then leave us to die but He go through it together with us =D then we went for CG class for east training class , it's really fun and i finally know that we should not sing siongs that we don't understand . that's like a revalation and great insight . i think i'm lousy , haha but God never says i am . heehee =D after training class , we had a meeting with jacq , i think we did some sharing of stuffs , i really learned alot today . the key lies in whether do you expect to learn ? and the question i'm asking myself is " am i ready and willing to have a revival in our life ? " God is GOOD ! ALL the time , ALL the time , GOD is GOOD !
God i also know that certain things if i want it i ought to learn how to wait in expectation =D and i really wanna disciple someone from lower sec and have the criteria of FATSO and desire and expect God to move and dare to dream and do big things for God ! specific prayer , God help ! or is my requirement for the HS too much or what . haha =D whatever it is , God i really need to grow and mature in the area of word centered , more about the WOG and knowledge in order to pass down to my disciple ! =D
today is the day of receiving and learning lots of stuff and i'm truly amazed by the people and how God works . yes and i'm really looking forward for tomorrow's CL camp and soon ! the day that is approaching which is CAMP ! we gonna rock NUS ! yeah ! haha =D
that anyone who calls on Jesus ,
they will be saved !
10:06 AM
Friday, June 02, 2006
yeah !!!!! the day that all PASSIONATE yhope have been waiting for is finally round the corner ! come on ppl , lets really grow and grow during this whole camp . get a blast from God and keep this blast ongoing ! i'm sure that this camp is gonna impact us great time cos we're gonna ENCOUNTER a spirit-filled camp ! so no doubt that the holy spirit is going to move in all of our midst and cause us to be so deeply touched ! =D i really trust in God that my people will really grow alot from this camp , not only them but me too , i know God wouldn't deprive me .. right ? haha =DDDDD we're going to expereince God's tangible touch big time and remember to prepare your own heart . be ready for God to move and really EXPECT ! know that during this camp God will confirm speak to you and you can experience Him , so don't deprive yourself from God's presence and start preparing your own heart ! haha and i've set my camp objectives , i'm gonna meet them and mature from all these =D heehee =D
this few days i've been travelling alot and the time spent in buses are either catching up of lack of sleep due to waking up early and sleeping late , or spending time with God , either reading the word of God or praying . well these times are actually great and awesome time , haha cos i like to sleep and the best part is i can spend more time with God . i've learnt alot this few days , especially from God and through the people around me . thanks to my sheeps , leaders ! =D haha =D
today we had east RC house warming . that's our first ever RC house warming . i think it's really great , though there's only a short time but looking through how God has brought us through so many RCs till the RC now . i think He's really faithful to bring us through and of course we ought to do the same too =D God's doing is too profound for us to comprehend and therefore i believe He brought us to the old RC for a very good reason =D haha
recently this song kept repeating in my mind : The Potter's Hand
Beautiful Lord, wonderful Saviour
I know for sure all of my days are
held in Your hand
Crafted into Your perfect plan
You gently call me into Your presence
Guiding me by Your Holy Spirit
teach me dear Lord
To live all of my life
through your eyes
I'm captured by Your holy calling
Set me apart, I know You're drawing me to Yourself
Lead me Lord, I pray
Take me
mold me
use me
fill me
I give my life to the Potter's hand.
Call me
guide me
lead me
walk beside me
I give my life, to the Potter's hand.
i think this song is good and it also expresses my feelings and emotions well . haha =D
that's my prayer to God =D
9:08 AM
