Monday, October 30, 2006
GREAT GREAT GREAT GREAT GREAT GREAT GREAT GREAT ! okei i'm lazy to continue to write my GREAT . it's GREAT , really GREAT ! AWESOME =D thank you all out there for being a faithhful support to the group , if it weren't for you girls , i don't think i can hang on till today . thanks for always supporting me when i am down ! i believe that solitude benifit you girls greatly , continue to have a spiritual hunger for God ! =D ( okei i was lag , post this so late =p )
talking about hunger , i really do have alot of cravings for physical hunger ! i want to eat the century square B1's chicken ? who is kind enough to buy for me ? i want it so much ! while taking my chinese paper two today , i was so hungry and the only thing that came to my mind was that chicken , i could almost smell the aroma right before me . the crispiness of the chicken was like right in my mouth and i think i was even munching it sub consciously ( oh yea i was real tired too haha =p ) I AM DESPERATE FOR CHICKEN !
don't ask me about my chimese paper , becuase the only reply i could gave to you guys is i don't know , cuase i can't differentiate a difficult or easy chinese paper , all i know was i was only doing and imagining my CHICKEN =x i pray that on the rest of my paper , i won't have all these stupid cravings in the midst of the exams . it's totally freaking distracting . boo =p I AM DESPERATE FOR CHICKEN !
DAMN IT ! that stupid art is so time consuming ! i wanna study for the rest of the paper but i couldn't do it because i have yet finish my art . this is so dumb , last time i wouldn't give a chicken feather about revising for other subjects but now when i want to do it but it's against my will . STUPID STUPID ! DAMN STUPID !
i wanna get married =x
i wanna crash your wedding
i wanna see you divorce
i am sadist
i wanna earn my first million at the age of twenty ? =x
i know with God , i can ! it's just that it may not be God's plan =x
I AM DESPERATE FOR CHICKEN !
I WANNA DRINK THAT " GOD KNOWS WHAT BRAND " MILK
I WANT MY MP3 TO COME SOON !
I AM SO SICK OF MY BAGS
I WANNA TALK TO ELMO !
I LOVE XIAOMOOMOO AND DAXIANG =D
I WANNA SHOP TILL I DROP !
I WANT THIS TWENTY DAYS TO END LIKE A BLINKING OF AN EYE !
I WANT TO EAT BEANCURD !
I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT TO SHINE FOR HIM ! =D
I WANT.................................................................................................... and the list goes on and on and on and on...........................................................................................
but.............................
I NEED HIM . YES THATS A NEED ! A CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT !
you spoke , i NEED to obey =D
7:46 AM
Sunday, October 22, 2006
gosh that was seriously a life and death experience for me . it concerns my life mind you ! haha okei fine that is i saw a flying cockroach , and you think that's all . NOPE ! the stuuuuupid eeedioctic freeeeeaking cockroach is flying towards me ! eww that's my worst encounter with pest ! i really mean pest ! okei fine i think the worst was a non flying cockraoch who was obviously crawling into my sandals . that was way back when i was still wearing sandals ( last time i felt secure wearing them and who knows , that pest can actually enter ! ) eee ! puke !
oh yea flying cockroach found in rocher soya bean , it was my first time there and i hope the last time too . haha quite a number of us were there yesterday people like joyce lee and her peeps , the east d cheung cheng guys , g2 , nigel , chuanjie , jeslin , yuyu , meng and me . we're happily eating and drinking our soyabean and chatting our hearts out when suddenly someone yelled " COCKROACH ! " and we all thought that dumb cockroach is crawling somewhere , then tryphoza screamed " A FLYING COCKROACH !!!!! " then lo and behold , everyone turned and apparantly when the girls saw a flying cockroach flying towards our direction we'll start to scream and run away ! i really mean scream okei ! haha yesterday's encounter was terrible . after that commotion of screaming , all of us started to packed our belongings and leave that dreadful place . i have no idea what happen to that cockroach , the second i saw that stuuuuupid black and brown thing i immediately scream and run leaving my valuables ( handphone ) behind at the table . that's how scared i am ! =x haha =p
finally i am convinced that a flying cockroach is indeed scarier than a lizard . but still the thought of a lizard gives me goosebumps . imagine with me , their skin colour , texture and eeks i can't carry on ! haha and if they can fly , i cannot imagine how miserable my life would be always seeing them around in interchange . phew... thank God that He created lizard that can only crawl . heehee =p
that was a long night for some of us that went over to yuyu's house to overnight , rather fun and quite an experience . study , slack , pray and stuffs(sssss) . hmm we went down in the middle of the night to buy maggi mee and saw a few teenage juveniles . they are like teasing us but who cares , we have God's backing . we also saw policemen that we are so bothered about them but they weren't even bothered bout us . haha we are citizens that ain't law breaking , exept going out after eleven at our age . haha =D and the night carry on... and soon the day... and now the night again . haha =D
edited * oh yea i forget to mention that it was simply unbearable wearing a boxers lookalike walking around you know ! i saw a few of my friends and jo was so surprised that i was ACTING NORMALLY when i see them . okei it was so embarassing and if you guys know me well , i wouldn't be acting normally , i'd be screaming and say you recognised that wrong person . i'm not bimbotic but everyone wants to look presentable or rather look good right ! whats wrong with spending time looking into the mirror and showing more concern to your appearance ? haha so i guess i am perfectly fine . LiLi Ng actually recognised me while i was walking back home and she shouted my name from her window , so funny . and she told me that she just know it was me though she didn't see clearly , AHH doesn't that sound as if that i was always wearing so ugly-ly . i wore a large tee-shirt , a boxers lookalike shorts , a op tote bag and a ladies' slipper from charles and keith . what a combi ! haha . okei fine it's over ! never will such thing happen again ! =D
MUG , not because i need to , but because i want to .
MUG , for His sake and again His to be done !
9:43 AM
Thursday, October 19, 2006
oh well i've been wanting to post the world's most boring post ever ever since like God knows when ago . but due to my laziness and being forgetful , i kept on not posting . but it's okei , i'll get to do it
today . haha anyway i've been treating my blog as trash , it's existence is for me to crap and be lame and say nonsense stuff . but certain stuff are seriously true , please be smart enough to know how to differentiate . i know my friends are smart ! haha =D
okei so fun... so here it goes..! xD
( argh i can't myself for doing such a lame thing , i hate seeing such stuff at people's blog . it makes me feel like sleeping and yet i wanna play it now... after reading , you may sleep =D )
alrighty... yesterday i was awaken by my mum and the reason she asked me to wake up was really funny . she says that she wants me to get use to the time of waking up early because the next day i'm having practical . i thought .. what a good reason but i continued to sleep as i was really lacking sleep . and again i was awaken by her a few times , my mum wanna see her daughter walking or rather jumping around like a living dead zombie beacuse i am a chinese . ( not vampire but zombie ) but still i woke up at eleven plus feeling really tired , i don't know why ,
maybe i am just strange .
i tossed and turned around in my bed for around five times before i was willing to leave my bed that's so reluctant to allow me to leave . then i took around ten steps to the bathroom to prepare myself . i relieved myself , washed up and brush teeth but ta-daa ! i am still sleepy ! haha i guess that perhaps it is just me being
plain lazy ! after which i ate breakfast and stuff and did my geography agriculture notes on market gardening . and boo i spent around the whole day on that stupid topic . it better come out for o'level else i am gonna be mad . haha no lah , i blame it on myself for not doing it whole heartedly but do other stuff at the same time . haha .
( ehh no... this whole chunk refers to the day before . ehh no wait... haha nvm i am confused about what i did , but who cares... i am playing here haha =x)
yea correct that's the day before but yesterday i met LiLi Ng and she taught me amath , haha F.I.N.A.L.L.Y i can prove trigo question . i remembered being able to prove trigo and solve trigo at the not tender age of sec three but yet i can't do it when i am in sec four . but woo hoo i manage to
already . studied practicals with yuyu jol and shuhfen through phone and was really confident that i am able to handle all sort of question that is thrown at me but little did i expect myself to do so much mistake . alright never mind about that , don't wanna talk about it . i know God's grace is sufficient for me to do well for my written paper xD
went geckting's house to study but wasn't really effective as we had alot of distraction and not being abnle to get started as most of us are not in the study mood . but hello , can you imagine a house with five sets of tv at a living room with almost all with scv , massage equipments and magazines around ( i ain't listing everything down ya'll know ) this is terrible , we can't really flee from temptation because everywhere there's something to tempt you like tv(s) and etc !!! ! !!
alrighty i am getting sick of posts like this ... i am in fact digging my own grave because entries like this bore me to death . i am not going to dig this grave on further by saying that therefore i end my day like this and i hope that tomorrow will be a better day . thank God i did not play worst by making it boring-er . i am capable of doing that , haha but still this don't apply that i am a boring person . i am not a bore ! i am... you know it haha =p
i am still praying for you
God gives me rest , soul rest .
without faith , it is impossible to please God =D
twelve more days to o'level art ( first nov )
9:52 AM
Friday, October 13, 2006
wouldn't it be nice if this world is filled with if only(s) ? then everyone can do whatever they want . but then again , it sounds wrong and it cannot be done . well but what if ? haha okei enough of my nonsense thoughts .
i'm just wondering why people choose to be indulge in things that they know they shouldn't and yet through the indulge chose to give EXCUSES that they couldn't make it for any appointments . get what i'm saying ? haha . nvm it's alright , it's food for thoughs or rather my FOOT for thoughts .
anyone with the simplest mind on earth will be aware of the situation that's happening around us now or even in your own life ( no doubt ) . never mind bout that cos we know that it's God's plan and we ought to hang on firm to His words that will never fail . i wouldn't allow anything to affect and hinder my relationship with God , no one worth more than God and thus it's not worth if i get affected by anyone . the point here i'm making ain't saying that any particular out there is ain't worthy but as compared to God , that's the fact . then again , i still love you as much as i always do . cos i love God and therefore people . that's not an irony but this shows how wise God is . duh !
apparantly , judging from my attendance , attitude , attributes and stuff has pleasantly show you how much i regard school as . ever since the end of prelims i have not been attending school regularly and i mean it . i've been taking leave ( pontang = playing truant ) these days for a good reason . this meant life and death issue you know , going school means i'll die . blah . okei crap... well i had a nice chat with jo overnight on the phone yesterday which leave me not being able to sleep the whole night and we met for breakfast and went on seperate ways to school . i didn't sleep for over thirty plus hours and when i sleep i really wasn't aware that i was . hmm these few days has been a great adventurous journey , not literally physically but spiritually . was that cool or not cool ?
all that happen leave me to think... i ought to be sanguine back again . i ought to this and that , that and this . and even to the extent of if only(s) , don't get my post ? it's alright ! =D i'm sure and confident that God gets me and will act according to what i pray . God's moving , i'm maturing . thanks for being my God , father , best friend , counsellor , strenght , guidance , help and the list REALLY goes on ...
( i'm screaming and God hears it , i'm crying and God keeps it , i'm caught up and God embraces me warmly ) =D
question and answers ...
1. do you mind if i mind ? _____________________ . ( never mind if you don't get me )
2. if given a word to encourage someone , what would it be ? ________ .
3. i aspire to be _______ ? i'm a ________ wannabe .
reclaimers notes
there is no form of stumble-ness ( if there is such a word ) in this entry cos it is genuinely that i didn't rephrase my sentence structuring and thus it may seem as if you all didn't undertsand what i mean . haha so it's okei and don't doubt the standard of my english ( i'm aiming an A2 dear , and please pray for me ) okei in fact my posts are bullshit , crappy and all nonsense times 2189558 times .
don't be afraid to shake that ass and misbehave .
xD
10:48 AM
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
although how much i do not understand , i know that God wouldn't allow me to understand until and unless this whole ordeal is over . how long will it takes ? i wouldn't know as well until i have mature from it . i can understand fully that
God wants to grow me but i just don't know what is it . despite the fact i want this whole thing to end as soon as possible or even sometimes immediately , i know that this is
God's plan for me to handle this thing and to
depend fully on Him . perhaps it's really time , so God change my heart and to always depend on You and not on my own lousy strenght . through it all , i wanna
give thanks because all things happen for a reason though it is really tiring and many a times i really wanna give up but i know i can still
tap on His strenght . i don't want the whole group's morale to drop , i don't want this group to fall . in all things ,
God works for the good for those who love Him , if our life are filled with problems , it means a good sign . God thanks for using me , thanks for seeing my capability despite of my weaknessES ( haha must emphazise i have alot xD ) God give me ample strenght to move on as i bring along the rest into
greater heights ! with You , all of us can ! intervene in it , cause i know when You bring us into this , You'll us out of it ! pour Your favour upon us as we
live up our hearts to You =D
haha but seriously , i really need that
extra dosage of God's power =D to overcome this whole ordeal . and
extra dosage of wisdom to chiong and mug for the last lap of my o level . well but i really wanna give thanks to God for sending my teacher to tell me that i am capable in getting at least an A2 for my english , so if it's the most i can get distinctions ? haha alright , be consistent in my work , at the end of the day , it's still God's plan =D
i wanna do well to glorify God , make my mum happy and make my dad proud of me . since young , i never make them proud of me before... =x this will be the time ! =D
so right now ,
o level is currently twenty days away and i am really terrified by this fact , how i wish i can distort this reality haha . but snap back , or rather slap myself . i gotta mug hard , during exams period is the time we grow most as we rely on God most . haha
GOD BLESS ME =D
please do not fall , i still need you to hang on with me . shall we ? =D
i want You now , i don't care how =x
11:13 AM
Monday, October 02, 2006
Author : Casting Crowns
Song : Praise You In The Storm
Link : ask me and i'll send you or go youtube and just type these info above =D heehee
I was sure by now
That You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say...
That it's still raining
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
I'm with you
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
I'll praise You in this storm
And I will life my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
I'm with you
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth
[ psalm 121:1-2 ]
this is actually dedicated to those out there who felt that tough times are seriously can't be overcomed . the matter of fact is that we all know that God create all things to happen for a reason , a good reason ! and the fact is that we can't fathom why is it happening to us , unless we ask God to reveal it to us... why would we wanna blame or complain , sitting around doing nothing when trying times arrive , shouldn't we be prasing God because we know that God still love us , and that all things else doesn't matter actually . the truth is we already have a God that will intervene and He doesn't want us to worry because He can handle all our situations . why bother to care when you already have a BIG GOD to help you care ? isn't it redundant to keep on worrying when you can actually pray and ask God for a solution with a positive heart , a heart that trust in God ! =D let's not be overwhelmed by all things around us , but overcome them with our Almight God =D
keeping you in my prayers ,
i'll always love you =D
i thank God i have you .
6:31 AM
