Thursday, August 31, 2006
haha and yea it's really pathetic when you're feeling not so good and you happen to be listening to songs like simple plan - untitled =x for every sentence that they sing , you have to counter attack them . let me show you their lyrics ...
I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why I'm lying here tonight
And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No, I can't stand the pain
How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I want to start this over again
So I try to hold on to a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No, I can't
How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I'm fading away
I'm sick of this lifeI just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
wah imagine your at that moment you have alot of problems in life then you're listening to this song . oops there goes . haha . but we must always remember that though these songs , sometimes it might identify with us but at the end of the day , all these belongs to the secular world . counter them , all these songs though true [ sometimes ] but thats not the end of the world . there's Someone that holds your future =D so... next time please do not try to listen to songs that you can identify with when you're really depress unless you don't wanna get out of your situation, try songs like Jesus will still be there =D haha .
to those who wants to know whats wrong with me nowadays , its regarding the group . i'm really determine to not remain status quo for this group and my own spiritual life . its time to grow , we've not been outreaching for so long . and i thought outreaching should be our lifestyle , so what if we need to study , we can't neglect our lifestyle . when you study , you still eat , drink , sleep , bathe , shit , brush teeth and do every of your daily life routine thingy right ? so what more about loving God , spending time doing quiet time , outreaching ? we also can't neglect all these things . we study to glorify God , why not at the same time , involve non believers to study with us =D it's time to show them the care and concern that is genuine from our heart . i know we all know these ! but none of us are doing it . i'm already building relationship with my friends ... what about you ? the time is now , we can't waste another second more ! we need growth ! we ought to set the perfect minimun standard for the rest to build upon , the grads group that serve whole heartedly , that grow in quantity and quality , that glorify God with our results , that have breakthroughs ! are you in this with me ? =D
aiya i don't know how to bring the message across cos now i'm really in a state of mixed feelings , but you gotta see my heart's cry !
* lets not forget our identity =D we're called to serve !
servant that happens to be a student =D
11:01 AM
Saturday, August 19, 2006
and ta-daa !
God again never fail to prove Himself to be real !
it's just a simple task of deciding which day it is for caregroup but yet kaysee and me was beaten by it . finally and stupidly that we should have just do this like super long ago to just ask God to make the decision with us . God shouldn't be the last resort but the first and only ! =D i prayed and decided CG to be on wednesday and i felt the sence of relieve and security that God gave me that this is the right choice =D however , we still faces people who can't come but now God moved and help us and made CG to be on tuesday ! =D we gonna trust in You and that this is Your perfect plans =D heehee
in a week i went for three CG , haha actually it's not the first time anyway . but this time it really made me realized that God's presence is getting stronger and stronger and more evident each time i sit at His lap and worship =D had G3's CG on tuesday , gotta attend ECE's CG on thursday for some matter and Grad's filming mock CG on friday =D this is really so fun ! =D the filming today was awesome , though we know that there are people filming us down during our CG but we really enjoyed each other's presence in the group and the fun and fellowship . not forgetting God is in the midst of all these and that He's simply real =D we just be ourselves and i believe that everyone was touched by God and enjoyed the people there . the funny thing is that we have to re-play the games that we play and let them film a second time . it's like those ACTION ! CUT ! DO THIS ! and then whatever we can say is " orh " and just whack it ! thank God they have no time for whole CG and that i didn't teach . yeah ! or else i'll accidentally bite my own tongue while trying to struggle with my stuttering and pronounciation of words . i know God don't want me to die young =D haha .
credits
casts - actors : yiqin , winstar and aloy
- actresses : joleen , yanyu , denise , pooiyee , peychyi , qinning and kaysee
* apprecitae the times we had together =D
we had dinner after that and eww the brothers are so disgusting , yanyu too is a brother so you're disgusting as well . we kept disturbing each other and giving each other our food . you might be wondering , what's wrong with being sharing , giving and loving ? it's really hell something wrong when u gave someone noodles and meat with gravy , vegetable and tomato with soup into someone's bowl of congee . so it's really gross right ? imagine it ! if you can't , next time we shall do it on you =D heehee . and it's really sympathetic that our poor silly little kaysee suffered such a terrible fate that she have to undergo such acts when she's with us . haha . hmm but it's so funny ! =D and last but not least , as usual we had bubble tea and study ! =x
God is always at the centre of all things , and definitely it includes our relationship with our fellow mankind ! =D
He loved ,
=D
10:34 PM
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
GOD ! ! ! ! ! ! ! BLESS ME ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! PLEASEEEEE ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! =D HELP ME SPEAK FLUENTLY IN PERFECT ENGLISH ALRIGHT ??????!!!!! CAN LAH RIGHT ? ? ? ? ? ? OOPS =X HEEHEE =P didn't i just say perfect english ? not perfect singlish ! remove all my singlishness and let me be flexible and fast to think of creative and interesting topic to speak on during conversation with my examiner . i'm having my English O'level Oral Examination tomorrow ! keep me in prayers ar u guys out there . else i'll punch you , kick you , smack you , tickle you , bully you , tease you , disturb you , make hell out of you , give you die 546841 times . . . and the list goes on and on and on anywhere and everywhere , anytime and everytime when i see you . heh heh don't try me , i'm daring you . i'm joking , i ain't a saidst , u know ? =D
YEAH ! i've made a multiply site .
www.leeleelaalaalooloo.multiply.com it ain't update yet , everything is empty . actually i don't know i create it for what what sake ? probably its to make lesser url available for others to use =D yea , i've achieved the inconsiderate act number .534 . do i rock or rock ? [ hey i know u're saying i rot ! i stone you then you know ! muakaka =D ]
it's time to MUG ! yea we've a G3's code . when we say " lets get romantic " it means " lets chiong studies " cause we'll often go romantic macdonald to study , also knows as junction mac . haha what so how romantic to sadly study together . heehee okei i shouldn't dread it . haha . yuppie G3's gonna become the most happening group cause we have JESUS ! heehee ! yeah that's right all goup have Jesus , therefore we ought to set the perfect standard for the next generation to build upon on . we're the first batch and it'll be from glory to glory ! we'll study hard for God and not chucking God aside and glorify God with our results ! =D graduates all the way =D all the best ! =D
okei i find myself dumb by recording my own voice as i was practising my oral for tomorrow and listening to my own voice . i found out that i'm having sore throat . heal me =D haha . so dumb and i wanna sleep soon =D yea . . .
from God above
=D
9:19 AM
Thursday, August 10, 2006
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okei i totally have no idea what have got into me ... hais ... don't hais ... later i 'll have wrinkles and look haggard . but i'm looking haggard now cos of all those sleepless nights . i'm exhausted ! i'm feeling lethargic ! strenghten me !
hmm yes oh yupyup i had caregroup today . G3 cg by the way =D and well . today's cg was hmm oh well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well ............................................................................................................................................ thats all i can comment on cg today . okei i'll just add more , overall was fine . but... certain things shouldn't be saying here . like you know , this is the internet ! haha and i really don't know what to say for today's cg .............................................................. =x
aiya so it was a test of faith afterall . i was with qinning at pasir ris interchange going to florence's house for cg and i was tossing and playing with my wallet while waiting for the bus . and then when i board the bus , ta daa my wallet is gone just like that . we had a thorough search on our bags but we realized that my wallet was missing . its so scary cos i remember putting my wallet inside a paper bag that i was holding but i still couldn't find my wallet . without further a do , we alighted at the first bus stop which was quite a distant away from the bus interchange . we quicken our pace as we walked back to the interchange and went back to search but to no avail . i was panicked but not really panicking ... we went to the customer service of the bus interchange but it was packed so we decided to go the mrt control station where there's a higher possibility that my wallet will be there as the place where i lost it is also nearer to there . but the uncle say don't have and ask me leave down my particulars then we decide to take bus back but we din't have coins with us . we asked our cg mates to come over instead but it was actually quite troublesome for them so we decided to change for loose coins at the interchange coffee shop for the bus drivers to go back to florence's house . it really was God's plan that He plan everything so nicely that i'd end up at the ulu coffee shop . inside there's a customer service also , we went to ask if they found a wallet ... and YEAH ~ !! i saw my wallet lying there ! that wallet is given by meng , cannot lost one . haha . but the founder took away my token with sentimental values , my guitar pick which i waited to buy for a very long time and two dollars and twenty cents . haha but thank God the rest was intact =D thank You God =D
two more testimony . one funny one eerie . i was on the phone with yuyu turkey one day after school and my bladder's gonna burst if i don't get home fast . don't mind me being not virture speaking . but i was stuck in the middle of the road with the roads congested with heavy traffic . the vehicles are all speeding at high speed like nobody's business . i was stucked but i need a toilet to relieve myself . so i told yuyu and she prayed " God let the road be empty in ten seconds , in Jesus name , AMEN ! " we count down ten nine eight seven six [ there are lesser cars ] five four three [ i don't see any oncoming vehicles ] two one . and i'm crossing the road and no car can bang me down cos it was empty . i rushed home to clear my bladder =D and on that night we meet to cycle but yuyu's bike brokedown . we went to the bicycle shop to repair and so nothing to do , i decided to pump my bike . i took out thingy on the wheel to pump but cannot pump cos the thingy went inside the tyre . which means my tyre from with air become deflatted . yuyu prayed again and ask God to heal the lame , erm lame tyre cos it can't move . we went to watch love at zero degree at a coffee shop and when we came back my bike's tyre is really healed with air fully pumped =D we asked the uncle if he did it but he said he didn't . it's eerie right . haha =D
and if you think i'm gonna end here , you're actually ............................. wrong ! no lah you're correct dear =D heehee =D
Pull The Trigger , End This Illusion
Why Don't You Just Drop Dead , Lay Flat Right Down Dying
I'll Set My Alarm Clock Early Cos I Know I'm Always Late
4:49 AM
everyone in or outside kallang stadium , in front of the television set goes " wah ! so nice ! " when the firework displays before the very sight of everyone . i really was amazed at how God intelligently use a person's mind to create this beautiful thing . the fireworks are really very beautiful , maybe not eye opener cos i've seen it before alot of times . haha i met yuyu and jojo to watch the fireworks display cos the others couldn't make it . ah ha ! you've missed it ! but its alright , grads gonna watch together on saturday at esplanade , isn't it more romantic to watch on top of the rooftop accompanied by the stars... moon... breeze... clouds and each other company ! phew ... this is definitely gonna be more heart warming than yesterday's fireworks . it's not that i despised the pathetic fireworks of singapore but to compare, i'd prefer other country than ours . haha ours is really nice too ! =D but of course its the people and environmant that matters . we can create out our own atmosphere .
we went esplanade after that , wanted to have star gazing at the rooftop lying down with the perfect ambience , but sadly ! the rooftop is out of bound on that day and there's no stars . my sister say "
where got people so stupid one ! see stars also cannot see in the city , so many lights then so bright , how to see the stars ? want to see also go east coast and see mah ! " haha okei i'll heed your advice =D who wanna star gaze with me at east coast ? prepare insect repellent ! =D haha perhaps after o level ? muakaka !
we went back to tampines and meet meng and we played arcade . haha next time i shan't play time crisis . i and meng died at the same spot but i wasted two bucks ... meaning i died twice and she only once . okei she's damn pro ! but i won her in daytona ! yeah ! =D haha saturday we gonna have picnic ! so happy ! =D
hmm oh well , this three are really my greatest friends i've met . though i can know of people longer than i know them , but they are just the closest =D we gonna walk through life together =D haha thank you for being in my life , pulling me up whenever i am down , just being there when i just need someone . haha and i don't have to say further cos i know all of us feel the same way as each other do =D i know , you know , God knows can already =D
｡ NNesindeES : Be Right Back . I'm On A Soul Vacation . Nudge Me If You Need Me . I'll Reply . Thanks ! ( Away ) • ♥™
I'll Be Back Before You Even Know It . Sorry To Keep You Waiting .
4:26 AM
Friday, August 04, 2006
hey fellow ecsan righteous sinners =D sounds contradicting , but well thats what we are =D haha . thanks for playing a part in my life . very true , nothing can last forever , only God can last =D but the fact that this bond that we had is irreplacable =D hmm ec3 is my first ever group like many of the rest , and no one can deny that they didn't grow here . ever since the day i stepped into ec3 , we've grown from a group that can only be count with a hand to a group that needs alot pair of hands to count . yes , we've grown much ! in the area of quantity and not to mention quality ! wah , i'm really really blessed that God place me in this team to work hard and play hard and hmm yes study hard . remember those overnights that we had at west cc mac . haha . you girls have indeed impact my life real hard and big big time , indirectly , directly , somehow or another . through you , then there's the denise today . [ in the area of patience and love ? haha okei i'm kidding =p ] i really love this group , lets look back and smile . not with regrets =D a very big thank you to every single ec3nians out there , you rock my socks ! without you are , i bet i can't hold on so long as well , its your encouragement , your affirmations , your actions that touched me deep from within . i'll never forget how much we've gone through , the joyous time when we work hard and reap ! the downcasted times when we're rejected . the every moment of our life , lets think back and move on , haha ... we have vision camp , two years of xmas , sub d camp , encounter camp , foundation build to last camp , espirit de corps camp , kingdom first living camp erm.. anymore ? i've forgotten . those escape trips , those MCGs , the cooking session , the concert , the drama , those harvest times . the every process . . . it has been really alot , till we can't mention every single stuff . but it's all because of everyone's presence that make it happen , that make it memorable ! =D haha though i kinda of miss this group but i know nothing can replace this bond and we're still serving as hard ! studies .. ministry ... lets grow into greater heights ! =D denise , don't get emo here . haha =x so many things i wanna say , but i may sound naggy , so i'd rather not be a grumpy old lady =D heehee . [ next time then i post individual message okei ? later my friends thought i lesbian again , everytime only about girls . haha . i'm STRAIGHT mind everyone out there haha ! =D ]
LOVE YOU GIRLS .
THANKS FOR YOUR PRESENCE THAT CHEERS ME UP =D
YOU ROCK MY erm... perhaps... HAIR ? OKEI IT DON'T MAKE SENSE =x
life's still as good . . . cos i'm maturing !
look back and smile =DDDDD
9:03 AM
Thursday, August 03, 2006
HEY BABES AND HUNKS ! i'm gonna revive my dull blog soon . redemption of the rotten blog =D
so come on and tell the world that denise is gonna start blogging soon . once again , with more updates =D it's happening cause for the past one month , it has been a breakthrough for me in many areas =D it's dead i mean damn cool . heehee .
come on people , if you're a male or a female and are breathing with two nostrils , announce or rather just go out and shout " DENISE GONNA REVIVE HER BLOG ! "
yea so see you people soon alright ! =D
by the way , link me at another of my blog , www.bring-you-praise.blogspot.com i knew i can't care bout both blogs but i'll do my best =D muakaka life's good =D
-d'SAINT
10:08 AM
